Kindness...

Either way, these days I feel so strange. I comb into depths of the ocean floor. My memory; grasping on some shell, some piece, some evidence what-else.. I don’t feel like myself anymore. Almost like something else has taken over me. All day i have a constant battle with a voice in my head and i can never seem to quiet it or win. I just feel numb. My head is just bubbled with all kinds of emotion but i am unable to express. I feel sometimes disconnected from God.

The wind, which had fallen in the south, now rose with great violence towards west. It was dark, the moon had reached at peak in the heavens, and the clouds swept across it swifter than the flight of the vulture and dimmed its rays, Suddenly a heavy storm of rain descended.
I had been calm during the day; but so soon as night covered the shapes of objects, a thousand fears arose in my mind. I was anxious and watchful, I was in market; every sound was terrifying me. I stopped by a paratha roll shop, suddenly i saw an old man, who was walking hardly & holding some hand fans and were selling these fans. the ground was so slippery and the mud so thick that he could hardly walk.
We have become so typical now. We avoid to help others. The actual set of perception from which you live and think in your daily life has become an utter rubbish; totally negative. We cannot treat everyone in same way. If one is crook but that doesn't mean you will treat rest nine person around you as crooks. You need to get one thing fixed in your mind, if one has betrayed you or has brutally broke your faith that doesn't mean the other person will do the same.

I may sound typical again but this is not what you really want out of your life. The more it happens the more we are getting careless & cruel. I passed an hour in this state of mind and went to that old man, I was having 330 rupees in my wallet and few coins as its month end and I am waiting for my salary, I gave him some money and I literally drenched into tears, how life can be so harsh to someone. I asked for his address. He told a faraway place from Lahore. I asked him where I can meet you next time. He replied, you can find me here daily 1:00 pm to 11:00 pm. I will go to see him soon. Whenever I think of him, my heart goes out. Make little acts of kindness part of your life, small acts can make big differences. In the end, kindness matters. I read somewhere if you want to be happy, practice compassion.  Here example of Cinderella new movie is coming into my mind. How she encounters as an old beggar woman and ask for water, who reveals herself to be her Fairy Godmother. She subsequently turns a pumpkin into a magnificent carriage, four mice into horses, two lizards into footmen, and a goose into a coachman.

May Allah give me the strength and courage to not be tired to help others ever.
Thank you Lord, You are my rock!!