Drenched in tears

And I am so thankful to Allah that he gave me a new life. My heart is so full of freedom in Allah love & His presence and overflowing adoration for me. To pray is my daily pleasure nowadays. Every time I think this worldly frame cannot contain one more exposure of His love, He again opens Himself to me. My heart nearly explodes with joy in worshipping Him.

 I often ask myself that how can I find and explore the riches of His love? How can I be actually free when I feel so alone?? Well, I have never been so sick before, all in sudden catch pneumonia & chest infection,  pain was severe, it was unbearable. 104 temperature & 39000 TLC’s. My head was heavy, vomits around the clock & I was so sure that I would die…

I’ve realized that heading to the hospital for ANYTHING causes a trigger reaction in me… but I have no other way out… that night I would never forget in my life… in the morning Aisha took me to the hospital. She understands. And I would tell her she is so much more brave than I am and she is so much more graceful in her fight, I was on death bed & she was taking photos that  we would laugh and just…do what friends do.

Nowadays I am totally out of mind, I am not getting what`s going around. Doctor told that you are suffering from attention deficit these days and your mind is messed up with so many things. Hmmm I am feeling so low. What am i suppose to do?  Tears are running on my cheeks.. .am I scared to share whispers to the World.

I'm finally back to blogger again and I'll be posting loads more over the next few days, and expect a new mini series with Aisha as my model up on the local misty fields. I've missed you guys and I am so thankful to the friends who were around & were so much concerned about my health. 

Love you all xx