Well, em not getting the words from where to start – hmmmm… I never been good in household chores and all home related things.
I have down pat the day when I shifted to my aunt`s place in March 2005 – around 6 years back , I were too childish at that time. I had to go to university early in the morning and at aunt’s place everybody sleeping, since my childhood I ‘am in routine to get breakfast – if breakfast is missing – seems life is dull and em drowsy around the clock- that time I used to share room with aunt’s daughter, I used to ask her with childlike face , hey I need breakfast –though she was sleepy enough – used to go to kitchen and confer me some food – but this continued for three or four days and the next day when I ask her for breakfast, she said, go to the kitchen – turn on the stove, put some oil, fry an egg and slice etc. I never did this before so it made me cry, that moment I missed my mum so much. Every morning she used to say, Shama have your breakfast first and I always says no no no – even she used to make lunch box for me :) awww mum I love you so much, I miss that time so bad – its been 6,7 years – no one ever said shama first have your breakfast *tears*
Anyways, I could not turn ON the stove and left for university and it became a routine to go without breakfast- though it was my fault or I was too young to turn ON a stove. To turn ON a stove em always depenednet on others – ever biggest issue of life *smiles* somedays back I was with my dad- I used to make tea for him and as soon as I used to be in kitchen, calling him loudly ‘Dad please help me to turn ON the stove’ and he used to come and told me that how to do it – turn on the lighter and with other hand press the knob. But I could not as I always find it scarey – at times my brothers used to do it for me!!
Sometimes em hungry and alone at home – there is something in fridge that I can fry – oh cheese rolls – yum yum, my favourite but the next moment a thought pop up in mind – you cant turn ON the stove so sit here silently *grumpy face* like Looney tunes show - seems weird at times!!
Few days ago, in the morning – me and my room mate were getting ready for office – she asked me to boil eggs – I took two eggs, put them in saucepan ,added water and put it on stove but dint turn ON the stove as em not good in that – when we were about to leave, she said bring the eggs – em with a strait face said oh I dint turn ON the stove – she took the eggs from water and put them back in cupboard and said ok leave!!
Nowadays my room mate is on vacations and all day long I only used to eat fruits or dine out because this bloody stove – there should be a magic stick to turn it ON – ahhhhh – I asked the lady here to turn it On for me yesterday – she said em not your servant and cant come up stairs to turn it ON every time you need – learn it- I said No I cant – she tried to teach me but all in vain, yesterday evening I asked another girl here that please turn it ON for me…
She said come here em teaching you for the first and last time – how mean :@ but I dint utter any word.
And finally today, just 4 hours back, i were reading a book and I thought there should be hot choclate milk – but at the same time I thought how to make it hot :p haha
I get up, had been to the kitchen ,push the button and rotate the knob towards left – the was a sound – zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz- now the next scarey moment, I hold the match box and yes lighten up the match stick and throw it on the stove and it worked – yay yay – it really worked *smiles*
Success and finally I overcome this fear & enjoyed hot choclate milk. This is really a big achivement for me in 24 years and em so happy!!
Love you all xx