Saturday, 30 June 2018

Twilight -3

I was on my way to Ali Tahseen for a hair repair treatment, lately my hair just seems dead and uneven….listening to Calvin Harris – Summer and thinking oh what a beautiful morning… finally nice weather in Lahore.
As soon as I turned the street towards Qadadfi, a car was coming from the opposite direction, the moron in the car was play-acting to be a Salman Khan and telling me that I should reverse and should let him out, I told him there is space at the right and this is your way, you can go from here simply. But he been utterly stupid and continuously trying to scare me and been loud, started with “Pta hy nei gaari kasiay chaalani hy, chalo side py kero”  Now it was my turn… I talked to him nicely at first but now I became “Elastic Girl” from the Incredibles  and I replied Yes I don’t know how to drive, now can you please drive and get off from here!!
Furthermore he said “Subha Subha Churail matthay lug gyge hy aub koi kaam nei sai hona” this was funny and I was about to burst into  laughter but I controlled πŸ˜„
He turned off his car and said he is not moving, I said okay, stay here! And I got busy with my mobile and suddenly he starts giving horn… I told him that go your way, you have enough space, and he was on the point that he cannot go into the mud and I should rained last night so it was bit muddy. I said if you are so in love with your car, you should keep it at home and should not drive on the roads. He got mad again and yelled at me…. I was no less, I behaved likewise… because I think these days no one deserves that we should talk nicely.
Another car came into the scenario and told him brother there is enough space, now brother moved and intentionally bumped into my car, how people can be so mean and then did not stop… I am such a fool that I could not note his number. I gave a big Gali in punjabi and headed towards Ali, I was worried there 😣 After getting my hair done, I went to the mechanic and got my car repaired. Mufat ka kharacha… Now I came back, wasted my whole day there and postponed all my chores, thinking that I should have not answered him.

Anyways guys, cut the story short, Please be nice to others while you are driving and specially to the girls  πŸ˜„
And yes if I ever find that bad ass mother-fucker anywhere in Lahore, I would hang him :D I wont spare him at all. I’m sure he would hit me from the other side and would run away once again πŸ˜„πŸ˜„

Sunday, 3 June 2018

Twilight - 2

We live in beautiful world, don’t we? And I believe that everybody in this beautiful world deserves respect, we are all connected somehow. Basically respect is to honor someone. It takes many shapes and meanings. Respect others by honoring their wishes, beliefs, secrets, vast knowledge and immense wisdom. Respect others personal boundaries are also an absolute Do!! Always!

In our life, we daily meet many people… may be at workplace, in a restaurant, at park, at a grocery store, in a market, in parking or anywhere else, each one deserves your care and attention even if it is a smile and a hello because respecting each other comes first and everything else comes afterwards. So yeah respect is all around us. It’s everywhere!

I understand sometimes it’s hard to respect few people… But you know still, there will be at least one quality in every person which deserves respect.
A stubborn politician - Respect his passion
An evil friend - Respect the brain
A self-obsessed person - Respect the self-esteem
A heartless terrorist - Respect his willpower
A crazy boss at work – Respect his stupidity
That's how it drives!
By the way, there are a lot of people for whom I am trying to develop respect… πŸ€ͺ

Other day I was hanging out with my friends, both of them surprised me… One of them been nice to the waiter and any trespasser even, he bumped into someone, he not only apologized but also inquired from the other person that is he okay?  Saying hello at random kids πŸ˜‡  In short… it was impressive. Positive vibes all around… On the contrary, second friend of mine been rude to the security guard and also insulted a random guy for guiding us a wrong pathway… ewwwww  this was really uncool. Oh bhai you should understand that security guy is doing his job and you are supposed to cooperate instead of getting mad at him. And my dear friend, you are asking an illiterate man in your British accent English about that specific spot… He guided you at his best out of what he could understand.  At this point, to talk to that guy in his native language was respect. In fact few of us interpret it inversely… but dude I’m telling you this was not cool.  You must know that everyone is born with the same attributes as you…

If you think that disrespect others makes you cool, you are absolutely wrong, Please grow up!! It’s toxic… It reflects your character and brought up. To disrespect someone is a completely no go for me either it’s a peon, office boy or cleaning person! You don't want to disrespect yourself, right?  I believe it’s difficult to give respect when you don't have respect for yourself… Giving respect is indispensable!

To be respectful to others is not difficult, If you are friendly, caring, and mindful and don't impose yourself on others…. you're being respectful actually.

Let’s respect each other and make the Earth a better place to live.

Friday, 25 May 2018

Twilight - 1

After iftari, I headed towards the Hafeez Center, It is a well-known market in Lahore for sale and purchase of tech gadgets. I had been there twice before but with a friend… I was looking for an appropriate parking, there was a huge empty space next to it. A guy screamed, yes this is parking space and handed over me a ticket. I parked my car, covered myself with a pretty huge scarf, picked up the things and start walking towards the target.
Uh oh… I forgot to mention the purpose of going there; I went there to sell out my mobile phone. So this was my first visit alone to this market at 9:23 PM. Suddenly I realized I am the desired object of people around… young or old guys gaping stupidly. You can hardly spot girls in this market. Unfortunately I could not act like a movie heroine to ask, hey what are you staring at? πŸ˜›
All of a sudden, a guy was about to bump his motor bike into me purposely and the other guy stating him amusingly “Yar kia ker rehy ho, lerki  ko marna hy”. I ignored and moved on with a grumpy face. As soon as I stepped in the market, a guy inquired me, Do you want to sell the mobile, I nodded my head and he said come here, I just go into that first shop at the corner… there were 4 guys in that small shop, I told the main guy that I want to sell this phone and he said please have a seat… I took a chair and sat in front of him like a scared child sitting opposite to the teacher. The guy expressions sharp but I am no less πŸ˜›
A conversation started between us and he tested the device from every perspective and took 20 to 25 minutes almost…
Finally we locked the deal. He got my ID card copy and I filled a form also for him, Later he gave me the amount and I almost snatched the money and tucked it in my wallet and he insisted me to count. Actually I was not in a mood to stay there anymore…. I said its okay and rushed out.
He smiled and I tried to smile back but I could not….
Heading towards the parking, I was thinking millions of scenarios in my head…
P.S : I’m a very shy person and to go at a crowded place like this all by myself and bargaining was a big achievement for me πŸ™‚ πŸ˜›
Yay, I did it. πŸ‘»

Tuesday, 6 February 2018


I do not know that what's going on with me these days… maybe I am filled up with the things inside me, holding back everything within me…Life is just not putting up the things at very right place, where they should have been! I feel so agitated and restless these days, I talk less and I have confined myself to books! No hangouts, No friends!! I do not bother to reply a text even. I don't feel like doing anything... recalling Burno Mars lazy song :D
Writing is the last thing that I can do… just write it off and get it off from my head.
The expansion and contraction of my mind is an ultimatum for me to relapse and reflect on my life. Yes I miss you! Life is not same without you, a lot has changed… Every day is a constant battle to choose to do things that will make mum happy or to curl up and cry. My dad; my loving, unique, creature of heaven, your absence has taught me new lessons.I learned a new essence of life i.e. being fearless.  And dad, I believe this is what you always wanted me to learn. You may not have wished this method for me. I know when you are fatherless; you have to become fearless… no other choice!!
Never in a million years I think I would find someone so utterly perfect.   
If I could time travel, I would choose to bring you back and to being a kid with you. Life felt so good that way, immensely good...

"And in all the stories my daughter shall hear,
It will not be the princess that slay the dragons,
But little girls that believe in magic
With big, brave hearts and even bigger dreams.

She will learn to rely on her own sword
In every battle, in every struggle, in every war
Because she will learn how to devour
Every single monster from their very core."
                                                            - Nikita Gill

Friday, 29 December 2017

Life without an Angel

A long time ago I wrote blog post,  woooooops an year almost…Time is running and things are different now, you start to wonder all at sudden why -- when did you start thinking it was more fun to talk to your father. Thinking about the past year with a pounding headache. When did everything change? This initial reaction is painful. Seems I have completely lost sight of who am I? This is not me. The real me, loves being a daddy’s girl who does not have any direction and plans to just let the tides of time carry me through life. I am just telling myself that the real me is more “Strong” than this. Then this all hits me, this is the real me!

Well, I really did not give myself enough time to write this note, I found it hard to come up with something like this. Everybody needs a guardian angel to help them through tough times and to let them know that someone cares.

Fathers, in most families, are our special unsung heroes. Any man can be a father But it takes someone special to be a Dad. Dad, Daddy, Pop, Abu, Papa - many different names, whatever it is you calls your dad, those words will always mean so much to you and to him.

I can write endlessly in this piece how "perfect" my father was.  My relationship with my father was, I think, better than the rest of my siblings. Somehow, in a sort of quiet way, I understood him—his moods, rules and dreams. Still, just like any family, ours also went through struggles and disappointments.

I have never been a material girl. My father had always told me never to love anything that cannot love you back

My dad is my hero. I were never free of a problem nor did I truly experience a joy until we shared it. I needed him to know when I was hurt. I needed him to know when I was happy. I needed him to know to hear me. I got what I wanted every time.

My guide, my companion, my mentor, my supporter, my defender, my strength, my toy repairman, my playmate, my wiper of noses and tears, my laughter, my driving instructor, fashion consultant but always most of all my closest and surest friend. . . .

We sometimes used to fight over nothing, but always knowing in our hearts that nothing could ever change how we felt about each other and, in my case, that he was the rock that I could always turn to...


You have given me the world. Your love, support and constant encouragement has made me the girl I am today. I am grateful for all the lessons you have taught me through your guiding example of how to give freely and love unconditionally. Thank you for always encouraging me to follow my dreams and do what I love. You have taught me about patience, family and LOVE!!!

I have so many fond gatherings, the countless times you drove me to school in early winter mornings and we used to enjoy that Halwa Purri breakfast on our way (mum could never know about this secret of us) I remember the first time when I was sent to Hostel and it was getting tough to manage alone in hostel, I came back crying and told you that i want to quit. You looked at me, smiled, gave me a hug and said... "don’t give up and keep your head up sweetheart." and finally I ended up staying there for four long years!! I remember your patience dad as you taught me everything, cheering me up on weekends in that horrible hostel, how you made me feel so special, your hugs & smiling face  reminds me that I would be okay...I am missing all those late night conversations with my silly questions  and so many more loving memories. 

We have had a strong bond of relationship and that was a "mysterious bond". no one can understand!!

 I love you dad... and I will miss you always!!!

 2017 was hurtful, thoughtful, selfish, altering, molding and one of most accepting years of my life. December was unkind and ruthless to me.

Happy 2018  peeps :)

Thursday, 29 December 2016

Wordless Friday

Everyone is busy with setting goals for new year like get in shape, Losing weight, exercise more, stay fit, exultant relationships, Love, adventures, reduce stress, working hard, travelling and bla bla .
Set a goal to help people around you as much as you can, this will give you an inner satisfaction and peace. When you help others never think this is lessening your wealth or saving. Just think that Allah gave you this much so you can help others…Remember in the end only kindness matters.
I repeat if you want to be happy, practice compassion.  
My new year goal/resolution is not to get attached to anyone emotionally :p *haha* just kidding!! I set few realistic goals; I believe God will help me to fulfill those!! So how about your New Year goals? Please share…
 May 2017 bring happiness for everyone!!
Happy New Year  J

Thursday, 20 October 2016

Love yourself ♥

For a while there, I was a little annoyed with the world. I have just recently come out of it, and I realized fate is predicted in heavens and no effort in your part can change it.
A very profound experience, travelling, soul searching, meeting few amazing and incredible people, shedding tears, countless abuses, chasing wrong people, sleepless nights, trying to overcome obstacles, and deciding to change the course of my life completely and in the end I came back to my life, to my home, to my family and sat back and thought to myself, “This is what life is about!”
I was on a roller coaster of massive changes. It was the most intense feeling that seemed to go on endlessly. I have had huge goals, big dreams on the horizon for this year, and it scared the crap out of me when things were not as I supposed.
 “What if life did not happen to you, it happened for you ever? “
What if I examined all of the crap that had happened to me before and saw where it had directed me? What if I realized there was a purpose for every situation of difficulty, struggle, pain, and trauma? How would my perspective towards reality change if I realized my quality of life is directly related to my reactions?
Would I stop and appreciate these moments of darkness, if I realized they are necessary to guide me to the light in my life?
My answer would be a BIG NO...
Once I read somewhere that Life has a way of testing a person’s will, either by having nothing happen at all or by having everything happen at once.”
With a change in focus, you can change your life. If you’re looking to change your life too, realize you have the power to do it and He is always there to help you and guide you…
Lord, you are my rock :)

Wednesday, 6 April 2016

Past, Present and Future is Linked

Have you ever come across an incidence so incredible that it left you stunned? If so, then you have just taken a step into the amazing world of Synchronicity.
What happens in life is not in our control. Think about it, no matter how carefully we design our life, we cannot identify how that design will be affected by a single random event. One small point changes everything. Some strange encounters dramatically changes our life. There is a way to find order out of this disorder.
Everything, Past, Present and Future is linked always and you cannot escape from it.
Always look at what you have, instead of what you have lost. Because it’s not what the world takes away from you that counts, it’s what you do with what you have left.
Sometimes life closes doors because it’s time to move forward. That’s a good thing because we often won’t move unless circumstances force us to. Stay patient and stay positive.  Everything is going to come together; maybe not immediately, but eventually. Pain is part of growing and everything in life is temporary. Your scars are symbols of your strength. Sometimes we have to go through the worst, to arrive at best.
Yes, life is tough, but you are tougher. Don’t stress over things that can’t change.